when your glasses are fogged up or smudged, you clean them.

when your dirty dishes pile is bigger than your kitchen itself, you clean them.

usually, when you have no more clean underwear or socks left to be found, you inevitably have to wash them.

this past weekend has been such a weekend of lovely little tasks. simple chores. little messes to be dealt with that i’ve put off quite well all week. and stashed in this pile i found other little messes that have been put off for more than a week.

in case someone didn’t tell you, life post bubble life {after homeschool + hs + college} is…harder. i would love to say it’s easier…but it truly is harder. in bubble life-everything is at your fingertips to do. in post bubble life you have to find it.

your life is what you actually do to make it that.

if you don’t pay attention to you, to what’s important along the messy way, it’ll get dirtier and foggier.

point.

it’s just as important to clean up the interior of our lives as it is to keep the exterior clean.

it’s just easy to keep little messes inside. disorganization & chaos kinda take over. the more and more you keep going, the more and more it gets dirty.

{who likes that word, ‘dirty?’}

the take away:

it’s vital to stop, take in life. stop and realize, that’s simple & that’s it. just like when we wash the dishes-then they’re clean. when we give attention to our souls, to ourselves, to our minds, to our life we’re living…there’s beauty and distinctness there {so much easier said than done!}

start.

what are the staples?

there are few. few people, things, that haven’t changed since life has, few things that won’t change while life changes.

Jesus.

here’s to honesty.

amazingly, He doesn’t give up, doesn’t leave, doesn’t get bored, doesn’t change.

mom + dad + kara.

been through the most in my 23 years with these special peeps here. lots of ups & lots of downs. they’re my staple people. cause post bubble life, people really do come and go, but not them.

{thank the first staple!}

dan.

this was not always able to be true. we’ve lost each other too many times in the past 5 years of our relationship {rollercoaster}. 11 months since post bubble life & he’s a stronghold, he’s a staple, a necessity in keeping me sane & insane.

when you stop to see what your life looks like, is it what you want it to look like?

here’s to honesty again.

mine’s not. 

how messy is it inside? how long have you been putting off your little messes? how much do you want to work on things but keep saying, eventually.

well the vicious cycle here is simple.

if we’re messy inside. if we’re foggy in our vision. if we don’t even know what we’re doing half the time with our lives…

we’re not being effective in life. we’re not being a difference. we’re not being an exclamation point. 

we have purpose beyond reason, but when we don’t cultivate & clean up, we can’t even touch that purpose to be making it.

so with those little messes, make little changes. there’s no quick cleaning up of weeks, months, or years of unattended to dirty clothes and dishes.

don’t even think about feeling overwhelmed. pick a word & go with it, cause nothing good will come from impatience and overwhelmingness.

and the reason i say that here is because at first i felt so defeated, overwhelmed, done, fried, and then some when thinking about opening up old cabinets inside me to get to some serious cleaning.

so for today, here’s the words people:

realization. vacuum. beginning. dusting. simplifying. little.

and if those are too much then here’s for you people who are afraid of big words, you know who you are:

start. think. open. 

 

 

it was quite frosty out this morning at 7:30 am: a balmy 27 degrees.

something that has been on the bucket list for as long as i can remember has finally been checked off and is now newly added to my weekly routine.

the public market. 

yes, as sad as it is that i have just now made my way over {a few blocks} to go to this exciting event…it was well worth the wait, it was worth the long anticipation.

it was chilly & it was a down right splendid morning.

my friend, who recently found out i had still not experienced the public market in all it’s amazingness, finally put his foot down and we went.

all i had to see was the hot apple cider sign & i was sold.

what a great experience! i am in love. i want to go every saturday just to walk around with hot apple cider in hand, bundled up, & watch all the different unique people buy and sell.

to me, it was worth the wait, and it was worth going on a crisp, beautiful, chilly, winter morning!

i came home with some mini red potatoes that i plan on making my mom’s mashed potato casserole with soon, broccoli to make with some yummy pasta, and peanut butter fingers that are to die for…i already ate one. or two. & in my quest to try new things with my new friend…i bought some odd looking spinach…spanish greens?…spinach something….i obviously have no idea what i bought. the plan is to figure out what the heck it is, find an amazing recipe to make with it, and fall in love with this new found odd green. we’ll see how that goes.

i am so thankful to be off work today, to do new exciting things with wonderful people, to have time to write, think, be, breathe, love, and not rush.

what a great day. and the best part is that it is 12:30.

market

market at sunrise.

my inspiration from today.

since i have an obsession with lists, i thought i could use a little humor in my life when it comes to this one.

here’s to hoping this person is out there.

i need someone who is prepared for:

all my questions.

my family.

the absurd use of the words, “fascinating,” “interesting,” and how i say, “on” weird.

taste testing all my creations.

handling me when i can be too much.

random dance moves.

my unpredictable appetite.

my love for God.

massaging me after a long day at work.

deep conversations.

treating me right & then some.

my uncontrollable laughter that sometimes migrates to snorting.

when i dream really really big.

how i think nothing is impossible.

when i’m being a germaphobe.

how i sleep.

my obsession with Christmas anything.

adopting little asian babies.

my short hair.

my need to always have a ‘project’ to work on.

traveling the world.

when i’m PMSing & I need to be held & watch You’ve Got Mail.

my {never-ending} opinions.

my love for texting.

my sweatpants addiction.

how i’m incapable of watching an entire football game.

being surprised on a daily basis.

dancing with me.

fun.

a really big challenge.

a lot of decorating.

my insane imagination.

being loved a whole lot.

&

loving me endlessly. 

the theme of the day is artwork.

art is subjective. it can mean, be, represent, explain, or be interpreted any way you want. it doesn’t have a yes or no, a right or wrong, a bad or good. it can be extraordinary to one person. and dreadful to another.

and this reminded me of life. circumstances. situations. events. everyday living.

what has happened to us, what is happening to us, and what will happen to us – takes on a subjective outlook. whether we see it as depressing, horrible, utterly awful, and we hate our lives on an hourly basis. OR we see it as life. we find joy when it’s hardest. we look for that small glimmer of hope in the simplicity of a stranger being friendly.

i went to Wal-Mart yesterday and half wanted to run through it with my eyes closed {like my mother taught me}, and i was not even 3 minutes in the store and saw one woman slapping her child and yelling at him to shut up, and another ‘mother’ grabbing her son’s cheeks and screaming he better behave or else {we all don’t even want to think about what the ‘or else’ means}.

but today, i went across the street to {on this glorious day} to the Memorial Art Gallery’s ‘Clothesline’ event. i talked to one man with the most adorable dog {a bichon to be specific}, had a friendly conversation with a woman volunteering at the event about her {lizard} hat, and chatted with an elderly lady about how she wants to rescue cats {long story}.

so really, if i wanted to be depressed…believe me, i could. but while some of the artwork i saw today was pretty ugly or just down right odd to me, to someone else – it was a treasure. it all how you look at it.

of course i have to share some pictures i snapped from this adventure outing today.

i realize that for some people, it’s not this simple…to just say ‘be positive’, or ‘it’s easy’. but for me…i prefer simplicity over headaches about jean sizes. joy over painful analyzing of what to eat. and humor {oh, humor} over serious critical opinions of how i like my hair asymmetrical.

everyone doesn’t like the same things. and everyone doesn’t think the same. and we all know we have completely different opinions on just about everything.

but it’s my life. it’s your life. don’t live it please the general population. {and this is me, not telling you how to live your life}…you should be living it to please God. oh and how many of you thought i was going to say- live it to please yourself…? nah, it doesn’t work that way either.

even as i wrote that i could feel you reading this thinking, ‘yeah, cause that’s fun.’ it can be. or you can look at is as a bunch of rules and guidelines to follow that suck the fun out of everything that our society has deemed ‘fun!’.

but, this is just how i look at it. sometimes, i have my days where the world is pretty dark, gloomy, and scary. but for most of them, i try to say to myself it’s another day to forget about some of the {so-called-crappy} past, and really get excited about what’s next, what i can do today, how i can impact someone in a positive way.

cause who knows, maybe talking to that woman about rescuing cats for 12 minutes really made her smile. and petting some strange man’s adorable bichon which turned into chatting about his ex-wife was really what he needed at that very moment.

so, for now, i’m making up my own fun. which consists of going salsa dancing with my good friend from my women’s small group at church. watching Disney classics. doing random baking. and watching sex & the city in between {only when there’s time, of course }.

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